The Hardest Thing About Pain
Some days I think it was easier when I was in pain every day.
Bone grinding pain every day sucks no question. But, it's harder for me constantly shifting from pain to no pain and back to pain again.
Take today for instance. (PLEASE take it!)
My pain went away yesterday about 11 in the morning. And, I had a good afternoon. Even got some small changes made to my website.
Then I woke up this morning feeling like I'd been run over by a semi. Achy all over and tired as sin.
And, it's that shifting from no pain to pain that I find immensely discouraging; particularly since these days it seems to be happening every other day. I don't know if the pain feels worse because I'd gotten my hopes up a teeny tiny bit or because it really is worse.
Then of course my rational scientific brain. or at least the part of my brain that still is, kicks in and tries to figure out THE REASON. Why pain today and not yesterday? What did I do wrong? What didn't I do that I 'should' have?
It's probably the damn weather: it's Chinooking again. Massive pressure shifts and a 20 degree F temperature shift from yesterday. And, if it IS that what the heck can I do about it? Move? Hardly. So, it's ride it out — AGAIN!
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Chronic pain may be the worst pain ever. At least the immediate pain of a wound or surgery is likely to go away for good. But chronic pain stays with you and totally interferes with your life. You’re welcomed to read more about the subject of pain at my blog & podcast at http://www.healthmattersshow.com where I help people discover how to get well from Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I know pain… been there… done that.
) Cinda
Be well
One of the great things about the human mind is that we keep seeking explanations for everything. Why did that happen? Why me? It helps us learn and thrive in odd situations.
Unfortunately, it can drive us crazy when there is something we cannot control, predict, or foresee. Why now? Why me? Was it what I ate? Was it the weather? Sometimes our explanation-seeking can become a problem of its own.
Best wishes. I am hoping for a great tomorrow for you, and for a way to live with the pain. Viktor Frankl and the story of Job have always been inspirations to me, when I am faced with a suffering that I cannot escape.
–Alex
Cinda … you are spot on!
I’ll take a boo at your site when able.
Thanks for reading, Lyle
Thanks Alex!
I really appreciate your understanding. Shutting off the “why” monster is a good way but tough to do.
Need to remember the Serenity Prayer.
Best, Lyle