Beyond the Pain

The pain has been bitchin' awful since midnight.

That's when the Chinook blew in. Winds right now are 46 kph but have been as high as 70 kph.

There is no further doubt in my mind that Chinooks trigger the Fibro pain. The question though is: is it the wind or the pressure shift? I know from previous personal research that rapid &/or severe pressure shifts trigger Fibro. But, once the initial pressure shift is gone why does the pain continue? Not sure but …

The more important question is what the hell do I do about it?

The acupuncture doesn't help. The hot soaks in Epsom Salts don't help. The 5HTP doesn't help.

Well, I could move to somewhere calmer. Yeah right! That doesn't seem very feasible right now. Though this place has Chinooks, it also is one of the sunniest places in Canada. And, god knows I need the sun for my Seasonal Affective Disorder. Feels like a shitty choice.

What I am thankful for is that I don't live in hurricane country. I can only imagine what I'd be like in that kind of wind. I'd probably explode from the pain.

Some days I think it was easier when I was in pain every day.

Bone grinding pain every day sucks no question. But, it's harder for me constantly shifting from pain to no pain and back to pain again.

Take today for instance. (PLEASE take it!)

My pain went away yesterday about 11 in the morning. And, I had a good afternoon. Even got some small changes made to my website.

Then I woke up this morning feeling like I'd been run over by a semi. Achy all over and tired as sin.

And, it's that shifting from no pain to pain that I find immensely discouraging; particularly since these days it seems to be happening every other day. I don't know if the pain feels worse because I'd gotten my hopes up a teeny tiny bit or because it really is worse.

Then of course my rational scientific brain. or at least the part of my brain that still is, kicks in and tries to figure out THE REASON. Why pain today and not yesterday? What did I do wrong? What didn't I do that I 'should' have?

It's probably the damn weather: it's Chinooking again. Massive pressure shifts and a 20 degree F temperature shift from yesterday. And, if it IS that what the heck can I do about it? Move? Hardly. So, it's ride it out — AGAIN!