Beyond the Pain

I just had one of the worst days of pain in recent memory.

It sucked!!

Rain. Cold. Damp. Wind. Almost guaranteed to bring on pain. And, they did.

It was a shitty, cold, damp day yesterday.

And, I was in pain all freaking day.

Here’s what I going to do to ‘ensure’ this pain doesn’t continue.

One, I’m adding a new item to my daily Walking practice.

Each day, just before I finish my walk I will ask myself, "What will I do for myself today?"

The second thing I’m doing is this: Every Monday I will go through my calendar and block off AT LEAST 3 ME TIMES!

For example, I marked off 3 2-hour periods of time this week that are reserved JUST FOR ME!

I don’t know yet what I will do.

BUT, I do know what I won’t be doing.

I won’t be spending the time on anything or anyone else!

It’s MY TIME!

Abe Maslow,
famous for his Hierarchy of
Needs, defined our ultimate need: Self Actualization as follows, “Being free of the good opinion of others!”

I like that phrasing.

People – well meaning, caring – people are always suggesting
– sometimes pushing ‘cures’ at me!

Look folks! I know you think you have the answer.

And, maybe you do.

But, god damn it! This is my freaking life.

And, I will resist your good intentions.

It’s not that I don’t want help.

It’s that I have lived with this mofo condition for 11
bloody years now.

And, fixing the freaking thing is MY responsibility.

And, I will do it at MY pace!

And, My way!

So, when you suggest that I should:

· Start taking massive doses of Vitamin Z,

· Get Rolfed,

· Or Whatever….

I will Thank You. Take note.

And, give it shot when I’m bloody well ready to.

Not before.

And, maybe never!

Got it?